What i feel...

This is what i feel 1 year back,
but why did i publish it now instead?
because finally i am able to let it go and move on.
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he says lets take a break
but what does a break mean to him
how can you act like i'm not there
was what i did that bad?
you say we'll be together again
But in my eyes i see hate
and in my heart i know you hate me
that is the worst feeling
i have no idea how i feel about you anymore
my feelings have been scattered in my brain
giving me a tobbing headack
i thought he was different from every other guy
but i was very wrong
then when i look into his eyes i know he's perfect and what i've been looking for
but now i'm slowly losing the man of my life
i have hurt him
am i left with no way to fix what i've done
sorry won't work this time
i've noticed myself
i know what he feels i understand
and i feel like hell for treating him the way i have
i'm truly an ugly person inside
and i am ashamed...