喜歡下雨，因為你不會知道我流淚

i happen to see this phrase somewhere and i think it's exactly how i feel.
you probably won't care if i cry or not because if you do, you won't be making me cry.
However, it would still be good that it's raining when i'm crying, then you will not know i am crying, and then i will still be able to keep the little pride that i have with me before you destroy it further.

it's silly how i know that crying is not the solution nor it will help the situation, but i guess when things happen, tears will uncontrollably drop...
and somehow or rather, you will feel better after crying, or you will eventually come out with some idea to sort things out.