wrong turn

i really dunno wat subject can i put ... i dunno what am i goin to write here.
i juz got back from KL ytd,i dunno how should i feel,ppl ask if i enjoy my trip,i dunno, really dun feel the enjoyment!i went home.bt there's nothing for me at home!i'm with my bf but the feeling's different.
i dunno what is tat suppose to mean ... but ... everything seems different!i cant tell which and where make the differences,but i just feel it's not the same!
was it i'm the one tat change?or was it i'm the one tat not changin while the whole world had change?i really dunno...
i don's feel home when i'm home,was tat suppose to mean tat i no longer belongs to tat place?
i don't feel loved whn i'm wid my bf,was tat mean he no longer love me?or our love oledi faded?
if tat so,then where do i belong?where's my love?
am i make the right decision?did i choose the right roaD?i really dunno and i dunno how to find out the ansa....