it's been some time...

it's been some time since we break up, i still miss him, the feeling it's like we were on cold war and not talking to each other but he's still there for me...
i noe this is silly, i noe very well that he's no longer there for me, he wont hug me call me piggy or dear anymore, but i just cant help thinking of him...
every single thing still remind me of him, but i kept telling myself i have to carry on... whenever i think of him, i will tell myself to stop and move on as he move on wid his life, so i sld do so too!
the pain was lesser compare to the 1st month we juz broke up ... but it's still there ... perhaps i need a longer time to recover... after all it's a 2 years r/s and there's lot commitment we've made to each other in between...
until today, i still dont understand how and why will our r/s end it this way ... but i guess it's no longer important, coz even tho i manage to figure out the reason behind, the outcome will still be the same, nothing change ....