word can't express my feeling...

i guess at this point of time, words can't express my feeling.
the sadness within me...

finally, i gather all my guts to tell him what i think. i question him, and he denied and defensive like i expected.
i really don't know how to carry on, i'm too tired to make a decision.
i know tired is only an excuse. if you want it, you can do it, nothing is impossible.
but somehow, i just choose to hide, choose to be a coward and hide from the fact that he's cheating behind my back, all these while he's been lying, about the friend, the past and our relationship.

at the end of the conversation, he got nothing else to say, to defend himself.
if this is karma, i hope there won't be anymore...
as this is really way beyong my acceptance...