happen to realize

suddenly realize that all the people around me are moving on and growing up except me ... staying and hanging on here... stuck at this level where i don't know how to progress...
and the ironic thing is people actually think i've grown up and improving compare to them which i totally don't agree at all ...
so was it me? or it's the people around me?
oh well, they probably just being nice and comforting me. i mean it wont be nice for them to say haiyo, why are you still stuck at this stage, don't you know how to move on? get a live babe ... this is pretty rude yeah ... so i'll just take it as they comforting me and make me feel better and got the strength and encouragement to move on!

when i look back, i realize that i never even once, blogging about how sad i am over my family matter, or how upset i am whenever there's something happen to my family. not that i want anything happen to my family, that's not what i'm trying to say. i'm just saying that, even though there's something happen, but i didn't blog about it, for instance, my second brother had an terrible accident few years back and his had a leg broken, can't walk for 1 year... i am pretty sad and affected but i did not blog about it...
and all my blog entry was about stupid guy/gal relationship... i just realize how superficial i am... knowing that bloody love is not everything, but yet stuck in it... only 1 word can describe current me - IDIOT or can also use MORON actually LOSER also not bad...

Kk... anyway... i've live better since the last emotional and sentimental blog ... erm... anyway, shall try to blog about something else more...
new year resolution will be ... do something effective and not whole day emo n being a crappy person over something crappy shit ... wahaha