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over lunch today, my bosses had given me some good feedbacks and advices.
whatever i do, it always seems like in a rush. And mistake tends to appear when i'm in a rush.
i do admit this is my weakness... donno why, i always think that i'm running out of time. there's so much to do and so little time for me to utilise...

and i need to strengthen my writing skill as well...
which my boss said this to me: " don't write what comes in your mind, write what is in your mind"
i should be writing something, based on what i think, rather than what i read...
this is indeed useful since i am expected to hand up my assignment in less than 2 weeks time... shit

today is not my day... everything seems fuk up to me...
i am very emotional person. i care very much about how people think of me and how people treat me... especially people around or works with me... but somehow, i just seems to have this problem anywhere i go ... there will be at least 1 person who dislike/disagree with me despite that i did not do anything...
what could go wrong? i don't know ... i wish i have the answer... then i probably can take it easier.

day 5 - even though i've been telling and controlling myself of not disturbing him... but i failed. i sms him... i'm so down and wish that he could be there for me... and certainly, this can only be in my dream... he did reply my msg but in a cold manner. he probably will be 1 of the many that dislike me... sigh ...
today is day 5... and i am still missing him badly...