执着

明明决定要放弃了，为什么还是有中放不下的感觉？
心里清楚明了，再等下去也不会有什么结果，可是内心的深处还是抱着一丝丝的期望，盼望他会因为我的愚蠢，可怜，痴爱 而改。。。
纵然知道这是比登天还难，可就是不愿放手。。。为了什么啊傻瓜？

最近想很多，觉得自己很没用。那么简单的事都办不好。

如果这是天意，即使是哭着我都会傻而坚强的走下去，可是如果这只是一场白目的误会，那请你明确的让我知道，好让我可以放手。

Numb

i found out again.
not the first, second, third, forth nor fifth, it's the sixth times and it definitely will not be the last.
how many more lies i need to take in and digest before i can have a better life?
how long more do i deserve to be torture before a brighter future?
my answer is zero. i shall not let myself nurse the grievance no more.
i think i had taken all these more than enough. perhaps if i had a little more trust on him thing will be different, but then again, he's been playing with my trust again and again. i don't see there's respect or whatsoever.

i always believe that you will learn from every broken relationship that you had.
1st r/s: choose your bf wisely, choose the right person; love can't buy anything.
2nd r/s: treasure; treasure whatever you had now especially the love one because you will never know what's gonna happen next, it's always too late to regret of not treating them good enough of easily just let go of the love.
3rd r/s: never trust guy 100%, or rather do not trust guy easily; learn to know the person better before starting out the r/s. unless you choose to be an idiot, like me currently, then you can forgive him again and again, act dumb time after time.

i told myself to wake up because this is not me, i don't like the me that is so useless, lack of confidence, uncompromisable, lost of direction and all sort of lame and useless character that you name it, i have it.
this is the last person on earth i want myself to be. and since i've been such a useless person for so long, i guess it's time to kill her off and reborn!
i deserve a reborn as whatever i need to do or i can do, i've done. i don't see the reason for me to stay put. nothing.

*praying hard that i'm holding on strong on my belief and decision*

Year 2009...

Year 2009...

my new year resolution shall be:-
1) dumb the basket
2) study hard and work hard
3) travel to at least 2 countries for holiday
4) earn big buck for school fees
5) trying my best to get the uni to take me in

越来越爱

如果青春只剩一张绝版海报 把你贴在额角
收藏你的背影变成无价之宝
有我到处炫耀
走路都在跳吃不饱睡不好
脑袋都坏掉心狂跳太糟糕
有没有听到千里外我对你呼叫

怎麽办我越来越爱快给我大声公告白
爱就爱马上要精彩 不要再怕
为你哭 为你笑 为你跳 为你呆
无抵抗 不耍赖 不悔改
管他的晴空惑苍白 只要对你崇拜

走路都在跳吃不饱睡不好
脑袋都坏掉心狂跳太糟糕
有没有听到千里外大声的呼叫
　　
怎麽办我越来越爱 默契是最夸张的舞台
第一个冲到第一排 比谁都快
为你哭 为你笑 为你down 为你high
不抵抗 不耍赖 不悔改
管他的青红或皂白只要对你崇拜

OMG我越来越爱
享受着宿命的安排
眼看你执迷的风采
排山倒海
为你哭 为你笑 为你跳 为你嗨
不抵抗 不耍赖 不悔改
越享受越停不下来
反而越来越爱

Oh My God我越来越爱 不必爱天都塌下来
爱若是你给的天灾 我要被害
为你恨 为你爱 为你坏 为你乖 不应该 更应该
才活该越忍耐越停不下来

只能越来越爱
越来越爱大声表白oh看我使坏
只能越来越爱
NoNoNoNo wooo NoNoNo wooo GoGoGo
只能越来越爱

如果青春只剩一张绝版海报
把你贴在额角

Oh My God我越来越爱 不必爱天都塌下来
爱若是你给的天灾 我要被害
为你恨 为你爱 为你坏 为你乖 不应该 更应该
才活该越忍耐越停不下来

只能越来越爱
越来越爱大声表白oh看我使坏
只能越来越爱
NoNoNoNo wooo NoNoNo wooo GoGoGo
只能越来越爱

如果青春只剩一张绝版海报
把你贴在额角

林峰 - 愛不疚

收藏在眼眸 常徘徊左右 爱 猜到没有
愉快玩笑後 能全然退後 你 开心就够
这种感觉太亲厚 讲一千句也不够
假使讲了 你听到後或会走
这种恋爱太罕有 不需真正拥有
成全 衷心祝福然後就放手
放手 放开所有 彼此更自由
放手 其实我绝非爱得不够
放手 豁出所有 还有这个好友
已经 已经足够
遥远是宇宙 静静在背後 去看守就够
这种感觉太亲厚 讲一千句也不够
即使一刹有过冲动 挽你手
这种恋爱太罕有 不需真正拥有
成全 多舍不得仍然 是放手
放手 放开所有 彼此更自由
放手 其实我绝非爱得不够
放手 豁出所有 还有这个好友
已经 已经足够
放手 我的牵挂 找不到尽头
放手 期望你幸福甚麽都有
也许 爱很深厚 然而我早看得透
放手 至可拥有