Stress!!!

I’m not sure what I want now and I really don't know how to make this decision ... only if god can give me a hand / a clue on this!!!
I really need help!!! I need help desperately!
I don't feel like staying in sigma and yet I don't feel like working in the new company ... I’m stress...really...very stress...
I felt like reject both offered and go back to Malaysia...
but I know I can't, I just can't leave my dear here ... I can't do that ...
I’ve been going around and ask people's opinion right after my boss talk to me... but I still haven't got a clue what I want, I can't make the decision ... I’m worry worry of what? Please don't ask me, I don't know either...
I’ve been asking myself what is that ... what is the bloody problem now, what is that stupid thing that is bothering you, just pull it out and settle it... no more problem then ... but I really don't know! Even my heart can't answer me that! How? What can I do?
I’m scare and worry!
I need help, I need help badly, I need help urgently and desperately!!!

LiFe....

Just another day of my life....
I haven’t been here for like almost 3 months!!!
Well... there's lot thing happened during this 3 months...
Say like I got a new bf ... who really love me and pampered me ... even though he's very careless ... but he's cute! hehe
and I’m changing job soon ... I only need to stay another 3 more weeks then I’ll be working in a new company, new working environment! Quite excited yet worry about that ....I don’t know how my new colleague are and i don’t know what exactly I need to do in my new company ... hopefully everything will be fine ....
And I’m going to the dental tonight!!! I HATE DENTIST!!!I HATE IT!!! But I got no choice~!!! My toothache's killing me!!! I can’t really enjoy my meal as every bite I taken ... it ache ...*sigh* stupid teeth! If I could, I would extract all so that they can’t harm / hurt me!!! But the fact is I can’t!!! Urgh!!!
and tomorrow I’m going to register in SIM ... hopefully they're taking me in ... *sigh* I am damn regret now, regret of not being hardworking when I’m doing my SPM now with this fucking result... I can’t even enroll myself in a better college ... or in e course that I like ... damn pathetic....