long long night.....

yesterday had a short discussion with him, finally told him what's bothered me, i felt relief.
even though in the end it doesn't seems like there's any conclusion, but at least i said what i want to say, and did what i should do. i guess there isn't much for me to feel pity or regretted in this r/s. i believe i've tried my best and put in as much effort as i can.

good thing is i din't cry yesterday. normally when i initiate break up, i would cry very fierce, like waterfall... but this time, i did not. i guess there isn't any tears for me to shed anymore, i've suffer enough in this r/s since the incident.
like i always say, i don't believe there will be any girl so generous, knowing their bf having fling outside and pretend there's nothing happen, continue to be with them, unless you be with the person for a reason, a motive.
for me, i'm with him coz i love him, but i guess my love for him is not as great to the extend that i can endure and be blunt about it.

he ask me to stay, give him one last chance, i don't know if i am able to take it. should i consider? or should i just be firm with my current decision and move on?

* the hardest part about letting go a r/s is not about forgetting the person, it's how to move on with your life...*