**~My ~ HeaVen ~***

to call my heaven, it doesn't seem very appropriate, maybe i should call it "my shell" coz it's a place for me to hide, for me to express my emotion and feeling, when i dare not to tell anyone about the inside world of mine...

Saturday, June 18, 2005

FiNaLLy?!

Finally I manage to spare out some time for my blog!! every time I log in and thought of starting a new post?I'll got something to do!and end up I'll have to postpone it!!! Was it an excuse for me of being lazy or what?! LoL I don't, know & I dun care. .coz it's my blog!! I can be as lazy as a piggy If I wan!!! Hahahah

Two days ago(c..2days ago?!It suppose to be like today .. U get wat i mean..Anyway,it's ok!Forget abt it), my friend told me tat he was having problem with the GF?he ask me to guide him, teach him what to do?but ? at that moment?in my mind, I was thinking?how I can guide / give advice while I myself is having problem?!Bt anyway,I?m a gd gal!
*~AnGeL~* (LoL) so I juz give him some suggestion ? hope he can solve the problem!


i've tried my best to guide my friend like what he can do,how he should do so that their relationship can go smoothly or at least .. got a bit improvement...i may not know what's happening between them,even he've told me their problem,bt i cant juz listen to one side coz u cant juz judge things lik tat!!!anyway..it's not my problem...:P n i've tried my best to help!!!:D

Sunday, June 12, 2005

LoV3's BLinD?!Agr33?!

I started believing in TRUE love when I was 13...And I do believe in those long lasting love...Even now,I still do believe...But...I wonder how can certain couple work out so smoothly while some just cant seem to get it right?I mean...Well,I'm one of those that cant seem to get it right no matter how hard I've tried....I think I'm a loser in love...coz my love life is so miserable... Sometime I think izzit coz I've did something v bad,so in return this is the punishment from god?!Or is it just a test that is give to me by god? I really want to know....Can anyone answer me?Well...I suppose no...I think I can understand why theres ppl who commit suicide coz of love....I used to think they're silly....no point giving up life for ppl that do not appreciate u at all...But ....Think on the other hand...if you are in their shoes...And think about it..Maybe u mite do wat they did!u'll say it's a stupid / silly idea of giving urself just for some stupid,lousy fella....But...who knows what exactly goin on between them?!NOBODY except THEY themselves!I think I shall continue later...coz no mood at all...Sorry this is such a stupid one...

Thank u!!!:)

Thank u!!!!Thank u for telling me that you love me!!!I'm so touched when you told me so....But..It's a PAST TENSE,as I'm having bf and u'r not ard .. Anyway...I dun think u still like me like u used too...So it's too late to say anything now!!!Just wish both of us can get a better life!!!

Saturday, June 11, 2005

What another stupid day?!

today I went to this funeral wid my bf...I din go in actually as I cant attend all these thing...So I just stay outside,sometime I wonder how was it like in there?I mean how everyone feel?!izzit lik everyone's crying or at least 1/2 of the ppl's crying and others were lik in a very sad mood?i din try to be MEAN ... bt i really wanted to KNOW!coz when my grandma pass away(tat was lik13years ago) our whole family was v sad!!!everyone was in a v sad & like end of the world kind...so i reckon that whenever there's ppl pass away ... The family should be v sad(of coz included frens&ppl ard)...i mean it's not NECESSARY for them to feel sad...bt...the feeling more or less should have rite?!
and i feel V sorry for my fren as when her mom pass away i wasn't allow to go accompany her!i wasn't there for her!!!Hope she can understand!I've try my best bt that's all i can do!sorry!!!
well...i guess this is a stupid one...coz i might bring up all those sad memory or something...so just forgive me ok!

Thursday, June 09, 2005

Bored?!

hmmm...After yesterday,only I realize that I din go for showcase or I shall say stop chasing boyband for like almost a year!!!
OMG~!!!I've almost make it...That giving up my most fave (but waste money) hobby!!!Which is meeting artist/singer whenever they drop by my country - MALAYSIA!!!
I use to go ard chasing boyband with my friends...But ... Not anymore as I'm working now,and I'm becoming more lazy ... Hardly join them chasing boyband anymore...Not even my fave band!!!:( what a big sacrifice ... hahahah
well yesterday when i saw the crowd...i feel quite amazad that last time,how can i be able to be one of them,i mean the crowd's crazy ... u cant even breath when u're in there!and now...i just feel so disgusted when i've to like ... pushing and squeezing with them!and then when i walk out from the crowd ... i feel so much more better!and then i realise how important oxigen to human!!!i shall learn how to treasure it tho...LoL

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

My Day!!!

Yay!!!It's my 1st time using blogs,quite excited!!!bt thn...i've to work now,so i shall start USING it tml!!!